Yesterday was mine and Shaun’s wedding anniversary. And to be honest, I was good. I thought about it off and on all day. But I didn’t cry. I didn’t mourn. I celebrated in my own way. I laughed. I watched some netflix. I took a bubble bath. I continued my Saturday like a “normal” day. And it was a good day.
And here is why I am writing. It might have taken me years, but I can see the bright side. In a whole lot of situations – and that was one of them. I could sit and cry that he died – or be happy that our paths crossed and I was allowed to meet him, love him, and I have an amazing little boy from him. It’s a choice. I choose to be happy.
And here is a funny thing. A lot of people, and I mean a lot, condemn me for my attitude. Sometimes, people consider my happiness, my perkiness – as a negative. I have heart the terms “fake”, “insincere”, “abrupt”, “overly friendly and she can’t be that happy”, “too positive – no one thinks that way” – and I could go on. But I won’t. And why? Because they are all wrong.
I have been through a lot more than most people my age. I have dealt with a lot. I have made a lot of mistakes. And I am so thankful for every single one. Not that I am proud of it all, of course I’m not – but it has turned me into who I am. And do I get mad? yes. Irritated? of course. I am human, after all. But – I am happy. My personality is sincere – and I don’t care a whole lot if people think it isn’t. I used to, but I don’t now. Those who know me – know the real me. And those who choose to get to know me, might change their mind.
So, look to the bright side. You might be going through a horrible time. And I am so sorry if you are.
Let me know. Send me a message – whatever you need to do. I promise I care. I will pray my heart out for you. But look in the mirror and find a couple blessings – I am positive they are there. And here is a little something to make your heart smile – and make you think of all your blessings. I love each and everyone of you! (And I really do….. LOLOL!)
And just be thankful – for what you have. It might be the one thing people dream of…..