Yesterday was mine and Shaun’s wedding anniversary.  And to be honest, I was good.  I thought about it off and on all day.  But I didn’t cry.  I didn’t mourn.  I celebrated in my own way.  I laughed.  I watched some netflix.  I took a bubble bath.  I continued my Saturday like a “normal” day.  And it was a good day.

And here is why I am writing.  It might have taken me years, but I can see the bright side.  In a whole lot of situations – and that was one of them.  I could sit and cry that he died – or be happy that our paths crossed and I was allowed to meet him, love him, and I have an amazing little boy from him.  It’s a choice.  I choose to be happy.

And here is a funny thing.  A lot of people, and I mean a lot, condemn me for my attitude.  Sometimes, people consider my happiness, my perkiness – as a negative.  I have heart the terms “fake”, “insincere”, “abrupt”, “overly friendly and she can’t be that happy”, “too positive – no one thinks that way” – and I could go on.  But I won’t.  And why?  Because they are all wrong.

I have been through a lot more than most people my age.  I have dealt with a lot.  I have made a lot of mistakes.  And I am so thankful for every single one.  Not that I am proud of it all, of course I’m not – but it has turned me into who I am.  And do I get mad? yes.  Irritated?  of course.  I am human, after all.  But – I am happy.  My personality is sincere – and I don’t care a whole lot if people think it isn’t.  I used to, but I don’t now.  Those who know me – know the real me.  And those who choose to get to know me, might change their mind.

So, look to the bright side.  You might be going through a horrible time.  And I am so sorry if you are.      
Let me know.  Send me a message – whatever you need to do. I promise I care.  I will pray my heart out for you.  But look in the mirror and find a couple blessings – I am positive they are there.  And here is a little something to make your heart smile – and make you think of all your blessings.  I love each and everyone of you!  (And I really do….. LOLOL!)

And just be thankful – for what you have.  It might be the one thing people dream of…..

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