I had the flu.
Like, they stuck a cotton swab in my nose – ran a test – and it came back positive – for the flu.
They gave me Tamiflu. So I am not kidding. I seriously, had the flu.
I write this to tell you this. I have never, ever, ever in the history of my life – been that sick. I have said before, “I have the flu…”. I will admit publicly – I HAVE NEVER EVER HAD THE FLU UNTIL NOW. For four days, I had a fever. I took motrin alternating with tylenol. My fever never got below 100.5. It got up to a little above 103. I was pretty sure I was dying. And there were moments, when I prayed to fall asleep. Just so time would pass – and maybe I would wake up and be better.
Yesterday, I called in sick to work for today. I have not called in sick in over three years to work. And the last time I called in? Food Poisoning. I went to work a week after having a C-Section. I needed the money and health insurance. And I don’t say this to brag on myself or talk about how tough I am…. But I am tough. But this weekend, I knew I was beat. There was no possible way for me to be better in a mere 24 hours to go to work.
I woke up at 2 am. Soaked. My bedsheets were dripping. My clothes. My fever had broken. And although it was disgusting – I almost cried. Because I saw it as a sign that it was almost over. Am I 100%? Nope. 80%? Still probably pushing it. But, I have showered. Walked around. Poured some tea. Talked to my kids, a little. And have been upright a lot more than horizontal. I laughed. A few times.
And you know what’s scary? Hearing my own laugh kinda shocked me. But it made me smile. It’s almost like I forgot in those four days – how to be human and myself. I’m coming back, but wow.
This is why I am writing this. I rarely pray and thank God for my health. I pray to keep my family healthy and safe. But I can’t say I have ever had a grateful heart for just feeling good. Well, there is a new reminder on my phone. Be grateful for you health. I can’t even imagine what it’s like for people who suffer daily with different illnesses. So, I am thankful for this flu. It put a lot in perspective. And I am coming out of it with a grateful heart. So, I pray I never get the flu again – but on the bright side – I learned something from it.